Be in the Move by Yorlene Vega, CRC

Hi everyone. hope everything is going well for y'all...
Please DO take the time to read and analyze this great e-mail I got a few days ago from a very good friend of mine, Yorlene Vega, from Costa Rica, but that actually is working as volunteer here in the UK at this point in time.

It's just mind blowing: Thanks Yor!!

THERE YOU GO:

"Hello my dear ones,

It's been a few years since the first time I recognized and accepted that my main goal in life was to find out who I really am: the real me, the uncorrupted one, the innocent one, the unbiased one, the original one. I remember the exact moment when that happened. I was hiking in the forest with Russell, and he questioned me about my goals. He said that I didn't seem to have any goals or ambitions in life. I told him that getting to know myself was my goal. I didn't know exactly the complete meaning of that statement at that moment; I didn't know how I was supposed to start going there nor how far and how deep it was going to take me. I didn't know back then how much I had to give up and surrender in order to find myself, someone whom I only had a faint idea that had ever existed. I didn't know about the tremendous amounts of courage it would require to start my journey within, aor abot the even greater amount of courage it was going to take to not give it up. I didn't know all those things back then, but I knew what I wanted and I knew I was willing to do anything to achieve it.

I am aware that many people consider that such a life goal is not a real a goal. Many might even consider such thing as an excuse to avoid taking responsibility for other important things in life. But I ask you, why do we frequently feel that our lives are empty and unfulfilled? Is life supposed to be constant denial of our dreams, our will, our happiness, our freedom, our perfection, ours Selves? It saddens me now to see how we humans try to clinch to everything that is outside ourselves for salvation, forgiveness and redemption. How we constantly keep chasing happiness, truth, freedom, peace and love, and they seem to be always out of our grasp. The answer I have found for that is that we keep searching in the wrong place: outside. We look for external beauty; we long to be loved by everybody else but ourselves; we think that material success will bring us fulfilment; we think that our angry rebellion against war and injustice will retrieve peace and freedom to the world and to ourselves, without realizing that whatever we put out there will return to us. Then, time and again we end up broken-hearted, disappointed, empty. The world lets us down time and again. People let us down. Life is meaningless, pointless. Existence becomes survival and there’s nothing else left but to do our best to survive with dignity. But is it really the world that fails? Is it really life? Or is it you and I? Isn't it that we are failing to recognize and remember that everything we long for is right within us, that, in fact, we ourselves are already everything we so much long for?

I didn’t realize before that knowing myself is only the first step for greater things. It is the first step to see love in the face without being afraid of it, without feeling unworthy of it, to recognize it and become love itself. It is the first step to discover the peace that lies inside me and not only have a hint of it at moments of meditation, but to feel its permanent presence even when my ship is going trough terrible storms. It is the first step to hold joy in my heart even when suffering seems to be taking over. Those are promises that many before us have made in the past. Those are promises that you and I once made to ourselves. I think that that's why we're here in the first place: To fulfil them, to make them come true. Am I saying then that you should live your life as I live mine? That everyone should forget about their goals and dreams and follow mine? That everyone should adopt my point of view because I hold the Truth? Absolutely not. If there is something I highly respect and admire, something that keeps is in awe, is every human being's uniqueness and therefore the uniqueness of everyone’s path. It is such a fascinating mystery. Unfortunately, we often give up that uniqueness in our daily struggle to fit in society, to be worthy of prise, recognition and acceptance. What I am suggesting here is precisely to go back to our uniqueness and to see life and the world from that viewpoint, to live life and experience the world from our unique viewpoint. All I am suggesting here is that the answers we are looking for are nowhere else to be found but inside ourselves, and that only when we return within will we be able to see clearly, to understand, to live life consciously.

My life nowadays does not lack emotions, moments of sadness, ups and downs. It is not easy to be put face to face with all your weaknesses, all your fears, all your unhealed wounds from your past. But I couldn’t be more thankful for all that. It is not easy to accept that control is only an illusion. That you do not have the power control other people's life, nor time or space. That you can plan your future in your mind, but that's all it is: a plan. That you don't have power over life and death. That the only moment you have is this one and that all the decisions you make at this very moment will affect the next one. Isn't that a lot of responsibility for only one second? However, learning all that has been my commitment during the past year, which could be described as the best and the worst year of my life, when so many times I have felt that I am losing my mind for turning down all the believes that don't allow me to grow up, for going against all that is expected and accepted by society to follow my own path. Looking back at my life, I know now that it has been perfect all the way long regardless of all my circumstances. It has been in fact all my previous circumstances, all my mistakes, all my decisions what have brought me to where I stand right now. How far am I in my journey? Where is it taking me? Will it ever end? The way I see it, evolution doesn't have an end, and there’s no turning back for me. Not that I want to turn back anyway. This is by far the greatest journey of my live, and I intend to keep in the move. It has taken me to places I didn’t image before. It has introduced me to extraordinary people (…or is it that it is easier for me now to see the extraordinary side of each person I know?) This is the first time I feel I am the owner of my life, the creator of everything that develops inside and outside myself. This is the first time I am truly free. Why would I want to give all that up? Why would I want to turn my back at my Self? Why would I want to keep denying what I am and who I am? I already did it for many years of my life. I can’t go back to that.

Some people say that you are alone in this life and that you only have yourself. I think that loneliness is only an illusion, so for me no one is alone. However, I have to agree with those who say that you only have yourself, but I know now that the meaning of your Self is far greater that anything the human mind can imagine. Aren’t you curious to try discovering it?

Thank you for reading.

Love,

yor"

Mind blowing... I TOLD YOU.... Jose... bye!!